No more No.4
I am getting really emotional these days and I am in the lousiest mood ever. Yesterday morning, while the boys were both screaming and crying again, I too, sat down and just cried out loud as well. I cried because I had to endure the craziness with the kids at home. I cried because I have no place to run to when this happen. I cried because I am sad that my spouse do not even appreciate what I have done at home for the family. So many reasons to cry, so I cried with the boys la!!
My boys stunt for a while, to see me crying so badly, so they stopped a while. And the Didi continue to fuss but luckily I have a very smart maid (one of the precious moment I am glad that I have a maid with me). She took Didi away from me, ran out to next door (QQ’s ex nanny), and stayed there with Didi until he was settled down with toys.
After QQ went to school, we all went out to meet a friend (actually to pass some pads to her) and with my swollen eyes. And then come back continue crying again until I feel asleep. So much of disappointment, cries and tears. Perhaps my hormone went hay wire, but definitely not pregnant or having any leaking of breast milk at this moment.Yes, I have decided, no more No.4, although I would very much like to have a girl later on, since I have a husband who cannot help out with the kids, zero tolerance of me going out from home to work on Mama Patch, even it is only once a year. Three plus one old fella are more than enough to make me cry insanely and behave oddly many times year.
Sayang k. It’s ok to cry, it’s not weird.
I had many crying moments too. esp during the time when i hv no helper at all; no maid, no mil and no hubby to help. but you will never know what no.4 could do. God has blessed me with No.4 that lifted up all my burdens, disappointments and hurts by just looking at his attics and smiles. Baby Ezra has always been my de-stresser (if there’s such a word). Never limit what God can do for you ok.
Oh dear, Chinnee *hugs*. I guess it’s one of those days when we are more sensitive than usual. I’m sure your husband appreciates what you do for the family. It may be he is just not that vocal about it. Some men are like that. Cheer up. The kids will realize that they have a great mom when they are older.
Hi CN! I’m so glad to know that I’m not the only crazy woman, hahaha…..I guess it’s perfectly normal, huh? That we all go quite crazy every now and then. It’s these darn kids!!! They really drive us crazy!!! But we still love them to bits….haiz. *BIG HUGS* Cry all you want, dear…..let it all out. Tomorrow will be a better day. It always is.
Hugs…
it is ok to cry…
me too cried n cried many many times….
Do call me if you need someone to talk..dont keep to yourself…
It is ok to cry and glad that you share your story here. There are many of us just like you. We will be stress when the kids are noisy, fighting, etc. *hugs* don’t worry….kids grow up fast. They will soon came to realize that they have a supermum !
Everyone has their moments. Crying actually helps release the pent-up frustrations. Try turning off your internal volume, like I do. When the kids start fighting/crying, I’ll shut off and read my “Hello” magazine!!
CN, I feel sad when I read your words. Sad that I know your problem but I just can’t help. Sometimes just don’t understand why is it so hard for Tan to tolerance a bit?
We all have moments like this..but it’s good to get it out of your system in any way that’s best.
Oh no… I hope you are fine now. I understand it is not easy to be a fulltime mum
This is a 24 x 7 x 365 job, and you just have to find a way to love yourself & be patient. Take care Chin Nee!
LOL, I like Paik Ling’s turning off method :).
No worries lah, just the time of the day…when I feel despair, I will just go and read blogs or call my friends to talk about it. They are best and understands me better than the man.
At least u ada maid, you try imagine no hubby, with an endless-problematic-mil, with a i-want-everything BOSS at work, and 2 kids at home + hectic schedule…that’s what I’m going thru now.
I wish I knew how to cry out loud when the kids drive me crazy. I won’t cry but i scream badly at home and sometimes i feel like killing everyone at home…sigh, it’s bad to have such horrible mind. Being a
SAHM is tiring.
Chinnee, i’m sad and scared reading ur post ;( coz I’m really planning to be a SAHM, but half day lah. Might have chance to work 1/2 day with my cousin doing something which I like - Art work! when your boys start attending the enrichment class, you’ll have at least 2hr stress free time =)
btw, i also want to close shop lah…2 kids enuf to drive me crazy too +_+
Hope everything is ok now *hugs to you*. I’ve been crying a lot lately too… feel like suffocating and could not cope at all… feeling really lousy :’(.
You’re not alone. Many times I feel like crying and screaming and jumping down from my unit too LOL! But I didn’t cry. Cannot let my kids and maid see me cry!!
a big hugs to you cnee
things r really not getting better there huh??
maybe you can consider sending the boys off for a 2 hours play at a nearby nursery so that u get to breathe or work on yr online bis?
if it’s really not possible to talk to yr huby, have u try writing to him instead?? i did & it worked…good luck
Hugs! even with a very helpful hubby I still have these moments!! kids really drive us up to the wall! hope you are better now!